Fight vs. Olivia Curry - June 29th, 2014 TBA Tournament Title, Des Moines Iowa
What they don’t tell you about winning a world championship is that the peak, positivity and high you get from winning is often times followed by a dark, deep valley of the same magnitude, but in the opposite direction. After winning Worlds, I was full on, whole heardly depressed. I have never experienced this in my life and it was terrifying. Nothing in my life brought me joy, not even training which I ALWAYS love. I thought for a while that maybe this means that I am done, that I have no fight left and that it is time to hang up the gloves.
I decided I would try one more fight and see how it went. I registered for the TBA tournament again but they didn’t have anyone to fight me at 147lbs, but they were looking hard to find me an opponent. Olivia Curry, who was registered in the B division at 165lbs stepped up to the plate and we agreed that she would move up to A class and I would fight her at her preferred weight.
I was super thankful that Olivia took the fight. She was a tough girl who stepped up to fight me and I am grateful for their experience as I learned a valuable lesson in this fight. For the first time, fighting felt like it was my job and I was going to work. I didn’t have a ton of crazy emotions. I hadn’t obsessed over my opponent like I used to. And I wasn’t thinking about winning, I was thinking about performing. I went in there to do my job and I did it . And even though it felt great to win, it didn’t float my soul like the last fights had. Fighting was becoming less about making me feel good from the high of winning, and more about me expressing myself through the martial art.
I have the video for this fight somewhere and I will post it once I find it.